In light of Dr. Angelou’s home going and now the post of a stoning video of the young woman, I have been deep in thought and reflection. Mother Maya said, "You are the sum total of everything you've ever seen, heard, eaten, smelled, been told, forgot - it's all there. Everything influences each of us, and because of that I try to make sure that my experiences are positive." This is so true! The sum total of everything. Each of us.
With my recent chronic health issues being labeled, this quote hits me especially hard. When I think of where my life is and where it has been over the years, I have had a good ride. Of course everything has not been roses and ice cream, but in my time on this planet, being a spiritual being having a physical experience, I have done many things to be proud of. But as God has not taken my last breath away yet, I know my work is not done. "The need for change bulldozed a road down the center of my mind." As a Zen practitioner, I consistently strive to live present in the moment. Yet, I must plan, to the best of my ability for the future. I can’t go blindly into the day and hope the lights stay on and that whole, clean food appears. Yet the big question for me right here and now, is how will I live my last days? What impact will I make on/for my son and the world? Dr. Angelou also said, “I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel." So, what is my legacy? What will I leave for others to be proud of, to remember about how I made them feel and to know the presence of God in my life?” I promise to spend my last days making you feel something and I hope by feeling something, it moves you to act in the lives of others. "Try to be a rainbow in someone's cloud."